Shared by Sappho

Just call me Sappho. I am a lesbian, 36 years old and I would like to share my positive experience with this crazy thing called love. I hope that with my story, many would be inspired to never give up in search of the right one. Although I am 'just' a lesbian to many straight people, I hope that they would realize that Love really do not care about one's gender. 

I met my girlfriend when we were in 1st year highschool in an all-girls catholic school. I was 13, she was 11. We were classmates. Let's call her Siren. She was not the campus hearth throb kind, and neither was I. But she was talented, articulate and active in school. And everytime I would finish writing a poem, I would always show it to her, and she was always there to like it -- those were the times when we didn't have facebook, and sharing things we have created actually meant a real human interaction. I still vividly remember the way she crossed her legs, what kind of sando she wore, and how her hands moved. I didn't know why I have such strong memories of her.
After freshman year, I didn't get to hang out with her. I'd only see her in the hall and we would only exchange hellos.The next time I'd see her would be years after college, when we were already working. I bumped into her at a mall and she was with her girlfriend then, so was I. I can't believe how happy I was to see her, but for some reason, we didn't even get to exchange numbers. I was probably too happy to see her that my girlfriend even asked who she was in a rather strange tone. 

Four years had passed since we bumped into each other and my relationship with my live-in girlfriend ended. During those times that I was struggling to find myself, reconnecting and just enjoying the single life, she was there. We'd talk on the phone, exchange text messages or even chat on facebook. But she was still in a relationship. So our friendship went on for a good 2 more years and we found ourselves just being the good friends that we were, listening to each other's hang ups with our own personal lives. For those two years I was heavily on the dating scene, to the point of almost getting myself in trouble for dating someone at work. But I never really had me a relationship. One date would always fail, after another. Whenever I would date someone, she'd know about it. If it doesn't work out, she'd know about it. And she's always a good listener as she listens with heart and doesn't have any judgements, no matter who or what the story is about.

Then came a time that chatting on fb or texting just wasn't enough. We found each other just hanging out even when the invite extended to fellow batchmates as they would back out of the gimmick right on the last minute. When she drove me home on one of our hang outs, things started to change. I saw her for the beautiful woman that she's always been. I fell in love. She didn't want to jump right into it then but I pursued her. And we've been inseparable ever since. It is such a great feeling, knowing for sure how things can be so right. 

I hope that my story would inspire those to never give up on love, and to remember to be kind to themselves being single, because when one knows how to be happy being alone, then that would be the most attractive thing. However, I had to put God into my quest for love. I surrendered all my heartaches and disappointments to Him, and had willfully forgiven all the exes that had done me wrong, even if I have no more communication with them. It was only then that He showed me who is right for me.

True love happens, no matter how many lies and falsities had been told about it, by other people and by our own experiences. So this is my story, my circle of life and love beginning and ending at age 36. I truly hope and wish others will find the beauty in surrendering and pursuing.

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 I met a guy from social link way back 2007 then hanggang sa nagkita kami nagtuloy tuloy yung communication namin at nung August 2008 naging bf ko na sya. Ayos naman yung takbo ng relationship namin hanggang dumating yung May 2010 nalaman ko I was pregnant. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa kanya dahil mismo ako hindi pa handa sa responsibility. Pareho pa kaming nag-aaral nun. 3 months na yung baby sa tyan ko before ko nasabi sa kanya. Although alam ko na ang sasabihin nya na hindi pa sya handa syempre nasaktan pa rin ako. Kaya instead na ako yung iintindihin nya ako yun mas umintindi sa nararamdaman nya.

My family wants us to marry as soon as possible para iwas sa kahihiyan ng pamilya syempre. Nagusap na yun family nya and family ko tungkol sa magiging plano. Magkatapat kami sa upuan that time. Una syang tinanong kung anung gusto namin mangyari. Ang sagot nya kung ano daw ang gusto ko yun na daw ang plano. Kaya ako ang tinanong. Yun totoo I really want to marry him. I love him so much. Pero hindi ko inuna yun sarili ko. Tiningnan ko sya, tiningnan ko yung mga mata nya. Ang nakikita ko lang sa kanya although hindi nya sinasabi, hindi pa sya handa sa married life. Kaya ako na mismo ang nagsabing hindi kami magpapakasal. Ang sakit nun para sakin. Nag-iimagine na ako ng isang masayang pamilya pero hindi nangyari. Syempre nagalit ang pamilya ko sa narinig nila.

Ako lang daw ang babaeng nabuntis na tumanggi pa sa kasal. Sa loob-loob ko kung alam lang nila. Pero tinago ko yun dahil hoping pa rin ako na mababago yung lahat, ayaw ko naman na sumama ang tingin nila sa tatay ng anak ko. Bihira na kami magkausap simula nun hindi sya dumadalaw. Nanganak ako hindi sya nagpakita, ang ginawa lang nya nagsorry lang dahil daw wala sya sa tabi ko at ng baby namin. Hindi naman daw nagbabago yung love nya para sakin. Dahil nga I still love him nakipag communicate pa rin ako sa kanya, kaya lang sikreto lang. 

May nababalitaan akong gf nya pag nalalaman nila ang tungkol sakin at sa anak namin naghihiwalay din sila. Hanggang sa hindi na ako nasasaktan sa mga nababalitaan ko. Ang gusto ko lang paniwalaan yun pangako nya na binitawan. Nahihiya daw sya sa family ko wala daw syang mukhang maiharap kaya kahit gustong gusto nya kami makita, natatakot daw sya. Ako naman inintindi ko sya. Nagdecide ako na magpunta dito sa abroad para magtrabaho. Yun lang yun alam kong paraan para naman ako yun sumuporta sa anak namin ng sa ganun wala na syang dahilan para mahiya. Pero ilang buwan lang ako dito nadiscover ko na meron syang ibang fb account na in a relationship ang status nya with another girl. Ang sakit sakit. Lalo na nung inisa-isa ko yung mga pictures nila together. Yung mga dates nila, yung mga gift nya sa girl. Naisip ko kahit isang candy di nya man lang nabigyan yung anak ko tapos willing sya magspend ng money sa babae nya? 

Hindi ko sya dinidemand magbigay para sa anak namin dahil nag-aaral pa sya. Nagsasacrifice ako na malayo sa anak ko para masave yung family namin pero heto pala sya nag-eenjoy sa buhay ng pagiging binata. I was planning na kuhanin sya para dito na sya magwork kasama ng baby namin. Pero tanggap ko na ngayon. Lahat lahat ng yon pangarap lang na hindi na matutupad. One friend told me na dapat mag-enjoy na lang ako para kalimutan ang lahat. Yun nga yun ginawa ko. Nagsisisi lang ako kasi bakit ngayon ko lang ginawa edi sana kung noon ko pa ginawa hindi na sana ako nasaktan at naloko ng maraming beses.
(Yung ginagawa mong pageenjoy naniniwala talaga ako na yan ang the best medicine ever!)

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It was November 12, 2007, when I met a man of my dream and eventually became my bf. I was only 21 then and still innocent when it comes to handling relationships that time kasi second bf ko lang siya. So I told him na sya na ang bahala sakin, I told him 2nd bf palang kita and wala talaga akong knowledge pa on how to deal with it. Naging masaya kami, naging ok naman yung takbo ng relationship namin. In fact he spoiled me with his own way. I love him so much, I love him more than anything else in this world.

That time since fresh grad palang ako sa college wala pa akong work. He is a PBL player kaya madalas insecure talaga ako sa mga babaeng madalas ay nagpapapansin sa kanya. Kadalasan tinatawanan niya lang ako kasi isip bata daw ako. Ok naman ang lahat very smooth and cool yung relasyon namin until one day pinakilala na niya ako sa family niya. One of his cousins asked him, may alam ba siya? And nakita ko siya pinanlakihan niya ng mata yung pinsan niya. Tumanim yun sa isip ko but I never asked him about it.       

Year 2008, he decided to try na magpadraft sa PBA but never made it due to car accident, so in short hindi natuloy yung original plan niya. Everything changed then because of the accident affected na yung quality ng game niya. Naging mainitin na yung ulo niya minsan hindi man lang ako matawagan o kahit text lang. Until he decided to go abroad,  nagdecide akong sumama sa kanya pero malas ako kasi hindi natuloy ang application ko. Malapit na siyang umalis nung meron siyang inamin sakin. Sabi niya hindi na daw niya kayang maglihim pa kasi kinukurot na daw siya ng konsensiya niya.
Sabi niya may bad past daw siya, may anak na daw siya at asawa pero hiwalay na sila. I was so shocked, iyak ako ng iyak because he lied. Sobrang nasaktan ako, hindi ko siya kinausap nang ilang buwan until kinausap ako ng nga relatives niya they testified na totoo lahat. They explained to me the reasons why they got separated and naawa ako sa kanya kasi totally pinagkait sa kanya yung karapatan niya sa anak. So before siya umalis nagkaayos kami pinatawad ko siya.

2009 umuwi siya ng Pinas dahil sa global financial crisis, lalo akong naawa sa kanya since depressed siya that time, feeling niya walang nangyayaring maganda sa buhay niya, umuwi siya ng province. Almost 1 year din siya dun. And when he went back dito sa Manila, apply ulit siya sa abroad then nakaalis siya ulit year 2011. Kahit hindi ako pabor sa pag-alis niya, wala akong nagawa. Maayos naman communications namin, we chat regularly sa skype, viber and soon. Until this year nung malapit na siyang umuwi I discovered something. It's just like a bomb na bigla nalang sumabog at naiwan akong durog na durog. One night kasi I was searching nang kung anu anu lang sa fb actually kakatapos lang namin magchat. I typed his name na isa kasi marami siyang name sa bahay nila. May lumabas picture ng bata kamukha niya, I opened it I was totally shocked. Nanginginig yung buo kong katawan, namamanhid habang binabasa ko nga comments sa fb. Aside from the first wife, nagkaroon din siya ng affair nung nasa province siya. Hindi ako makaiyak basta nararamdaman kong manhid na yung buo kong katawan. I messaged him doon mismo sa fb na yun and that particular moment I broke up with him.

I was a great pretender na never kong pinakita sa nga tao na nasasaktan ako. Basta my daily routine is after office pupunta ako sa church and doon ako iiyak ng iiyak. I was questioning God why he allowed all of these things to happened. I'm asking him to heal me. Then last May dumating na siya he tried to reach me out but I totally ignored him. Sinira niya yung tiwala ko and sinayang niya yung almost 6 years na pinagsamahan namin. Sinarili ko lahat, wala akong pinagsasabihan ng lahat kasi ayaw ko nang kinaaawaan but that particular month I read your post from fb where you shared your story then sabi ko siguro kailangan ko na din magshare. I think nagsama na sila ng girl and honestly sobrang nasasaktan pa rin ako. He asked for forgiveness, sabi ko nalang sa kanya pinapatawad ko na siya pero hindi ko pa siya kayang makita.

And now I was planning to go abroad din ayaw ko kasing makita yung taong nanakit sakin.

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I met a guy thru a social networking site a year ago. Yeah, for someone claiming to be cautious when it comes to men, sa cyberworld ko pa talaga nakatagpo ang naging 2nd bf ko. Yes, 2nd bf at 35!

Let's call him JB. Pinoy, working in aviation and based in the US now. We started conversing thru chat, Feb last year. We had so many interests alike kaya medyo agad kaming nagkagaanan ng loob. Sa madaling salita, naging mag-on kami kahit di pa man kami nagkikita personally. But yeah, we do get to see and talk to each other almost everyday thru chat, phone and video calls. Then umuwi sya dito sa Pinas May last year, at nagkita kami. Ako ang lumuwas ng Manila para magkita kami. Actually, it was against all the will of my friends na nakakaalam. Kasi nga, ako daw itong babae, dapat daw sya ang papuntahin ko dito sa amin. But I persisted. Anyway, sanay naman ako sa Manila. At hindi alam ni JB na may bahay din kami sa Manila. Ang alam lang nya, makikitira lang ako sa mga friends ko pagluwas ko. So no big deal for me. I can handle myself well enough. So yun na nga, nagkita kami. And as expected, naging magaan para sa aming dalawa ang lahat-lahat. Palagay namin ang tagal na naming magkakilala. We both felt the connection. We talked about almost everything. Yes everything pati past relationships... except for one Ex of him na di nya masyadong nadetalye sa akin. When I asked him kung nagkaroon sya ng gf sa US, sabi nya "Oo". But did not elaborate more on this, unlike dun sa mga naikuwento nyang ex's nya. Ako naman, hindi na nag-usisa pa. It's a thing of the past, and I don't think I have the right to go any further than what he's willing to share.
       
Everything was going smooth for the both of us kahit na nakabalik na sya ng US. Until may nadiscover ako sa fb nya. He's got 2 fb accounts. Yung isa, friends kami, yung isa hindi. Sa umpisa, it's no big deal for me kasi ako din naman, dalawa rin ang fb account ko. I even confronted him about it. Pero sabi nya, it was his sister who's maintaining the account. Until August last year, na-add nya yung isang fb account ko out of carelessness siguro. He didn't recognized that it was me kasi palayaw ko lang ginamit ko doon. No pics. No updates. No nothing. At doon ko nakita lahat ng photos nya with his Ex. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig that time. My whole body was shaking literally. I emailed him right away, sending him back the photos that I saw, asking for an explanation.

Nakikipaghiwalay na sana ako sa kanya but he pleaded. He assured me na wala na talaga sila. And immediately hide the albums where I got the photos from. Yeah, he just hid it. And since mahal ko pa nga sya, nagawa ko naman syang patawarin agad. But I must admit, hindi na nawala ang pagdududa ko sa kanya. I started doing my investigation. At hindi nga ako nagkamali sa hinala ko. September same year, nalaman ko na he's living in the same flat with his Ex along with two other Pinoy families. I confronted him again, ayaw pa nga niyang umamin. Pinipilit pa nya akong sabihin kung sino ang nagkukuwento sa akin ng mga ganung bagay. Eh wala naman akong masagot, alangan namang ilaglag ko ang sarili ko, at sabihin kong it was out of my pure intuition and instincts. Umabot na sa nagsisigawan na kami over the phone kasi walang may gustong umamin. Until sya na mismo ang sumuko. Pasigaw na umamin ng "Oo!" Sa ginawa nyang pag-amin, napatawad ko sya. Hindi ako bumitaw. Kasi in fairness to him naman, he always make up for the losses. He kept on assuring me na halos hindi na daw sila nagkikita at nag-uusap.

Pero sadyang binibiro talaga ako ng tadhana, kung kelan pa sya nagbitaw ng mga ganung salita, makikita ko na lang sa mga fb photos ng flatmates nila na magkakasama silang namamasyal along with the Ex. Ayaw ko man lagyan ng malisya, pero hindi ko na talaga magawang mabuo ang tiwala ko sa kanya. So I decided to finally break-up with him. Ayoko na talaga kasi over-consumed na ako sa pagdududa ko sa kanya. Yung hinihingi ko sa kanya na umalis sya sa flat na yun, hindi naman nya kayang ibigay kasi nga hindi naman sya ganun kayaman para bumukod mag-isa. Ayaw ko na sana talaga.
        Hanggang October last year, nagkaroon ng problema sa family ko. Nagkasakit yung mother ko. He didn't have a clue, what I was going through with my family when he called me again. Sa kagustuhan kong mabawasan ang bigat na nararamdaman ko, may problema na nga kami sa family, pati ba naman sya poproblemahin ko pa, minabuti kong tanggapin ulit yung pakikipagbati nya.  So far, all throughout those hard time in our family, hindi naman sya nakadagdag ng problema sa akin. Or siguro, masyado lang mabigat ang dala-dalahin ko para alalahanin ko pa sya. January this year, I lost my Mother due to cancer. I suffered from depression. There are times, sinisisi ko ang sarili ko noon na baka hindi ko natutukan ang health ng Mother ko kasi I was so consumed with my problems with JB.

April this year, umuwi sya ng Pinas ulit. According to him, it was unplanned. He was here for a month. We both wanted to see each other (I would like to believe na gusto rin nga nya talagang magkita kami) pero he wasn't willing to travel all the way to my place. Gusto nya, ako ulit ang pumunta ng Manila, when for a fact alam nya and I made myself clear to him kahit nung hindi pa sya nakakauwi na hindi ako makakaalis at di ko kayang iwanan that time ang father ko. Yes, dalawa na lang kami sa buhay ng father ko. At hindi ko sya kayang iwanan dahil alam kong he's still wallowing over the loss of my Mom. Sa madaling salita, hindi talaga kami nagkita nitong pag-uwi nya. Grabe ang sakit na naramdaman ko nun. Akala ko yun na talaga ang katapusan namin ni JB. Akala ko makakaya ko na siyang hiwalayan finally. Pero hindi eh, nagawa ko pa rin syang unawain at patawarin. Pero yung trust ko sa kanya, hindi ko na talaga magawang ibalik. Mas lalo akong nadepress to the point na hindi ko na madistinguish yung emotions ko. Hindi ko na alam kung saan nanggagaling yung lungkot ko at kung saan ako mas nalulungkot. Nasambit ko na lang sa sarili ko, I am being unfair to my mother moreso with my father, na syang kasama ko dito sa bahay pero di nya ako makausap or makasalamuha dahil parati akong nagkukulong sa room ko.

Hindi niya ako tinigilan kakatawag kahit nakabalik na sya ng US, asking for another chance. Sa muling pagkakataon, oo napatawad ko na naman sya. In my willingness to get even with him at sukatin kung talaga bang mahal nya ako, binuhay ko ulit yung alaala ng naging first bf ko sa mga usapan namin. Na kunwari dadating dito yung Ex ko para bisitahin ako and was trying to have me back again kuno. Actually, sinadya ko yung kuwento na yun to make him realize yung pambabalewala nya sa akin. That here is a man, willing to spare me a little of his time which at JB's end, hindi nya nagawa. Naging effective naman so far, mas napadalas yung tawag nya. He was always checking on me kung magkasama ba kami or kung nasa bahay na ba ako. Minsan nga nasambit ko pa sa kanya kung ano ang pinagkaiba sa sitwasyon naming dalawa at that point: siya, kasama yung Ex nya sa iisang bahay, at ako kasama at kakuwentuhan yung bakasyonista kong Ex dito sa amin (again, emphasize ko lang po na gawa-gawa ko lang po yung kuwento bout my Ex sa kanya). Sagot naman nya sa akin, "malaki" daw. Sila daw ng Ex nya wala ng planong magkabalikan at kailanman di na magkakabalikan pero sa amin daw ng Ex ko, may mga suyuan pang nagaganap. I must admit natuwa naman ako sa sagot nya. Ibig sabihin tumalab ang drama ko. At patuloy pa syang naging maalalahanin at sa loob ng mahigit isang taon na magkakilala kami, noon lang sya naging open sa akin sa mga iba pang bagay. He was able to share with me some of his deepest secrets.
       
Until, something happened. Nagpaalam ako sa kanya na mawawala ako ng mga ilang araw. Pumayag naman sya. Dinalaw ko lang tita ko. Pag-uwi ko ng bahay noon lang pumasok yung mga messages na pinadala nya sa akin thru viber. Wala kasing internet dun sa pinuntahan ko. Sweet pa sya sa mga messages nya nun. Sa bahay ko na lang din nakita mga missed calls nya. Sa sobrang pagod ko sa biyahe, itinulog ko na lang at di ko na nagawang magreply pa sa kanya. The following day, nagulat na lang ako sa offline message nya sa akin sa YM. Sana daw, sinabihan ko sya! I was so puzzled and I must admit, nagpantig din ang tenga ko. Hinala ko, iniisip nya na kasama ko yung kunwa-kunwariang Ex ko. I replied by asking him kung ano ang ibig nyang sabihin dun sa sinabi nya kasi sa ganang akin, wala naman akong maikukuwento sa kanya that would seem to interest him at baka kako siya itong may gustong sabihin sa akin. Nagawa ko pang i-greet sya for our monthsary. Yun lang, at hindi na sya nagreply at nagparamdam sa loob ng mahigit tatlong linggo.

Grabe, sobrang sakit nun. That three weeks of silence seemed eternity to me. There are times na gusto kong ako na ang mag-initiate ng move, pero sobrang naaawa na din ako sa sarili ko na sa ganung kababaw na dahilan, agad nya akong binitawan. Samantalang ako, I endured all the pain that he caused me and never left his side. I was so affected. Minabuti kong kaibiganin yung kapatid ng Ex nya dito sa Pinas. Pero di ako nagpakilala na gf ako ni JB, sabi ko lang kilala ko yung present gf ng Ex ng kapatid nila. At mas nagulat pa ako sa aking nalaman. Nasabi ng isang kapatid nung Ex na kung malalaman daw ng kapatid nila na may bago ng gf si JB, maglululundag pa daw yun sa tuwa. Di daw kasi maka-move on si JB sa kapatid nila at kahit wala na sila, nangungulit pa rin. Mas lalo pa akong nasaktan nung nagtanong sila kung ilang buwan or taon na ba daw si JB at ng bagong gf nya. Nung sinabi kong "more than a year na ata", they blurted out saying "naku, tumatawag-tawag pa rin daw yung si JB sa kapatid nila nitong huli nilang uwi sa Pinas, to think na may gf na pala sya nun!" Hearing this, hindi ko na talaga kinaya. Galit na galit at muhing-muhi ako kay JB. I wanted to get even. I wanted revenge.

I had sleepless nights. I got so consumed plotting my revenge. I promised myself, wala akong ititira sa kanya. Sisirain ko sya, sa trabaho nya, sa pamilya nya, sa mga kasamahan nya sa bahay at sa mga taong nakapaligid sa kanya doon. Wala akong ititira! ANGER was an understatement to describe what I was feeling at that point in time. I won't go into details kung ano ang ginawa ko, but yeah... I succeed! Sa loob ng mahigit tatlong linggong hindi nya ako kinibo at kinausap, nagawa nya akong tawagan. Nakikiusap at nagmamakaawa na ihinto ko na ang paninira at pang-iinsulto sa kanya, at huwag ko na daw idamay ang ibang tao sa galit ko sa kanya. Nagtagumpay na daw ako in making his life miserable. He can't concentrate on his work and everyone else was asking him what the hell has happened to him. Pero huli na...

"I may be cordial today, but hell has no fury like a woman scorned!" Noon ko naintindihan sa sarili ko ang mga katagang yun. Malimit ko tong sinasabi, but I didn't thought na I'll come face to face with it. Now if you may ask me, Kuntento at masaya na ba ako sa nagawa ko? Hindi. I must admit, revenge wasn't really for me. Nakonsensya ako sa ginawa ko sa kanya. We don't repay evil with evil. Kahit kailan, hindi sagot ang paghihiganti at hindi ito kailanman ikakagaan ng ating kalooban. And most importantly, we don't hurt the one's we love kahit anong laki pa ng kasalanan nila sa atin. Siguro nga, hindi talaga ako ganun kasamang tao. Ngayon ko lang naintindihan kung bakit may sinasabing "crime of passion" ; kung bakit may pumapatay at nagpapakamatay dahil lang sa pag-ibig at pasalamat ako na I'm still in safe keeping with my sanity para di ako umabot sa ganun. God forbid.

Sa ngayon, I'm nursing my wounded heart. There's never a day na ipinagdadasal ko na mawala na sa isip ko ang paghihiganti at tuluyan ko na sanang makalimutan yung pain, yung hurt at lahat ng sama ng loob na naramdaman ko. Ipinagdarasal ko rin na sana mapatawad ko na ang sarili ko for feeling hurt at tuluyan ko na sanang mapatawad si JB sa lahat ng ginawa nya sa akin at higit sa lahat, mapatawad nya sana ako sa mga nagawa ko sa kanya. For it is only when we learn to forget the hurt love has left us with, can we learn to move on.
       
Kung meron man akong natutunan sa naging experience ko, it's when to say ENOUGH. If we don't set a baseline standard for what we'll accept in our life, we'll find that it's easy to slip into behaviors and attitudes or a quality of life that's far below what we deserve.




               
       
       
       
       
       

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When I was 19, I got pregnant out of wedlock. Ang tatay ng anak ko ayaw sa amin. Masakit man isipin but I need to face the responsibility alone. I was scared, embarrased at first. Hindi ko alam paano ko sasabihin sa pamilya ko about my pregnancy. And I was angry, with my child's father and myself. Yun yong naalala ko. I cannot blame everything sa kanya. Alam ko kung ano ang ginawa ko. Sa katagalan, nalaman din ng lahat ang pinagbubuntis ko. Merong mga tao na natanggap ang kalagayan ko, meron ding hindi. Yun feeling na tinititigan ka ng mga tao na parang nakapatay ako. I actually can laugh about everything now. We all learn from our mistakes. I accepted the fact na dapat kong alagaan ang batang nasa sinapupunan ko dahil walang ibang magmamahal sa kanya nang labis kung hindi ako. I tried my best to be strong not for myself but for my child. Naiiyak na naman ako dito. I moved on. Prayed everytime I had the chance.

Kahit naliligo, kinakausap ko si Papa Jesus. Though things where not that easy but I'm proud to say kinaya ko lahat dahil hindi ako pinabayaan ng mga taong mahal ako at ang anak ko. At nandun palagi si Papa Jesus para sa aming dalawa. Almost all of my prayers sinagot niya. But a few months after I gave birth to my child, nadiagnose mama ko na meron siyang tumor at kailangan ng major operation. Lahat halos ng family from both sides of our family lend out a helping hand. It was very rough time for my family. Para kaming nalumpo. But with God's miracle nasurpass namin ng family ko ang problema. My mom now is still strong ang healthy. My mom is my inspiration, my idol. Kahit madalas hindi kami magkasundo, nanay ko parin sya. At mahal ko ang nanay ko. Later on, me and my family tried to move on, take everything one step at a time. My mom was recovering very well and I found a job!

For at least 3 years everything was the same. My son was going to nursery school, I was working, meron kaming konting negosyo na si papa ang nagmamanage, nag-aaral mga kapatid ko. Hindi kami mayaman, pero tinutulungan kami ng mga kapatid ng tatay ko. Then one day, nabigyan ako ng chance to go and work abroad. I needed too. Gusto kong makatulong sa pamilya ko at mabigyan ng mabuting kinabukasan ang anak ko. My contract was good for 2 years. But for the past 5 years hindi ako nagkaroon man lang ng kahit fling. Naging matatag ako na kung magkakaroon man ako ng relasyon sa isang tao, dapat sya na talaga. I don't remember praying for it. Noong dumating ako dito, nahirapan akong mag-adjust. Masakit na naiiyak nalng ako. Yung hindi mo mapigilan ang mga luha mo kasi nangungulila ka sa pamilya mo at sa anak mo. Life here abroad is NEVER EASY.
Adjustment sa cultural differences, language barrier, pagkain at saka climate! -35 degree celsius yung pinakamalamig na natry ko. And until then my life was full of surprises!

Late 2011, a man sent me a message through online dating. And that man is the man I am happily married with now. It was not a love at first sight, but the second sight for me. hahaha. Right there and then I know I want to be with him. I knew that very moment that I love him. And I don't know why. I guess, sometimes love moves in mysterious ways. He knows everything about me and my family even before we met. Mahal at tanggap niya ako at ang pamilya ko. Nameet na din niya family at anak ko noong umuwi kami ng Pinas. Hopefully soon magiging isang pamilya na kami dito kasama anak namin (namin kasi anak na rin niya ang anak ko). Masaya na ako sa simpleng pamumuhay namin dito, meron ding panahon na hindi naging madali para sa akin pero alam ko na kakayanin ko. Natuto din akong magpatawad at napatawad ko na din ang sarili ko. Yung tipong hindi mo namalayan, nakamove on ka na pala. Tama sila, time heals all wounds.

Shared by Miss GM

I just wanna point out that GOD is so good all the time and that life is full of suprises. I hope people who will read my story will realize that GOD sometimes takes us into troubled waters not to drown us, but to teach us. Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from above and says, "Relax sweetheart.. It's just a bend, not the end!" And GOD never shuts one door without opening another.

To begin my story, I was only 19 years old when I fell inlove to my workmate, a married guy,
31 years old with two kids already. Due to financial problem, I had to stop in college and then my whole world has changed when I started working. The relationship lasted for almost 2 years. Of course he was my first love. Since I was only 19 that time, maturity wise I am not capable of understanding real things about a relationship. I didn't mind if he was separated and has kids already. I learned how to lie to my parents whenever he asks to see me. We were happy at first but later on he started to cheat on me and abused me verbally and physically. I decided to leave my work and so not to see him.

Year 2008, if you guys still remember UZZAP, a mobile chat application for SMART users. I got addicted into it. Maybe I just want to forget what happened to me because no one knew about the abuses I had from my ex. I met a guy who lives in the city and unfortunately he has a gf for 2 years already during that time. But since we always talk everyday, we decided to meet and he went in our province to see me. Things happened so fast. The relationship lasted for almost 3 years knowing he has a gf. I started working in a call center and made my schedule a good excuse to my parents so I can sleep in his house in Manila every weekend during my off. For almost 3 years the set up was like that. This guy is again, 11 years older than me just like my first bf. And his real gf is same as his age. Our story ended when he decided to choose his real gf than me. It would be a big trouble to their families if he leaves her. I was really in pain and so stupid that I even asked him not to leave me and will accept his situation. But he just left me like a trash. After our relationship, I had few bf's but I didn't love them because I was so afraid to trust again.

Year 2011, I met a Filipino guy online, working abroad. Oh my goodness, he is married but separated with two kids. I have no luck for single guys. We had a long distance relationship for almost a year. He asked me to meet his family since we are just in the same province. I went with my parents to meet his because he has sent me a package. My parents was so mad at me when they learned about his situation. But I fought for him. UGH.. useless. I found out that he has so many gf's online. That's how our story ends.

Last year, 2012. I met a medicine student. He is 4 years older than me and single. Single??? really? wow!  My goodness! I told myself.. this is it! So we dated for almost a month, but he just can't introduce me to his family. He is not allowed yet to have a gf until he finish his school. Well, he loves me anyway. So this guy was very protective to me. He has access to all my social media accounts and never allowed me to talk to any guys online. And worse, he even checks on my phone whenever we are together. The relationship ends in a bitter way. He broke up with me with unknown reason. I went to see him but he pushes me away and shouted at me along the highway with many people watching us. He kept on shouting at me while saying "we are not bagay" and "di daw kami magka-level". I was in tears and I can't even say a word during that time. He was trying to leave me in the street but I insisted to follow him then suddenly he faced me and parang susuntukin na ako. Dun ako natauhan.

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The same year, after a couple of months I received an email from someone that I used to know when I was still working on my first BPO job as a sales agent. It was my birthday that time, I was touched by his message. He is actually a US citizen. A client I used to call everyday for almost two years about updates on his account. The guy was really way older than me, divorced with two adult sons. I know that he likes me. I told him everything about my life and family. We shared our stories to each other and I felt there's something so special in us. He decided to see me so he came last year to spend Christmas and New Year with us. He rented a car and a house for 28 days. Every Sunday, we go to church during his stay. I feel so blessed since he came to my life. Never met a guy who is so sincere like him. He is so sweet and loving. I don't wanna compare Filipino guys to foreigners but to my own experience, they will treat you like a princess and your past will never be an issue to them.

Next month, I am leaving the country to see and marry him. I was granted a US visa after our petition was approved this month. Until now I still cry when I think how blessed I am to have someone who loves me and most importantly, he loves my family.

Shared by Miss Nastassia Sarabia Lozarita

A year ago, I would have never guessed my life would be the way it is now. A year has passed and so much has changed.

My happy ever after turned into my worst nightmare. Who would want something like that? Nobody, right?

But it is reality. Shit happens. And it happens to the best of us and it happens when you least expect it. I was never good at rejection. I always feared being taken for granted. I dreaded the feeling of being replaced, the feeling of getting left behind.

Every girl dreams of a fairy-tale-like love story. It doesn't have to be the most handsome Prince Charming. Mostly, we dream about our Knight in Shining Armor.

For the first time, it felt like I found my Knight in Shining Armor when I met you. To you, I was a princess. Well, at least that’s how you made me feel. 

Our love story started through MIRC. I can still remember our first meet up. I was so tense and jumpy all over, I didn't know what to wear. I wanted to look pretty for you. Being with you, for real, got me feeling excited and at the same time, wondering –

How would the day turn out?
Would we click?
Would we feel the same?

And we did! I can’t even remember what movie we watched on that day because I was so happy just being with you. I always looked forward to days when you would visit me in BFRV with buko pie or plato wraps. Even without “pasalubongs”, I treasured the effort and time you spent with me. You had to go home late at night and had to travel alone back to Biñan. I remember looking forward to weekends because I’d be with you. Your family and friends made me feel like I was family, they made me feel like I belong. I am thankful for the nights you had to travel with me back to Manila just because you wanted to make sure I got to work safely. I was never a fan of video games and that changed when you got me a play station just so I had something to play with while waiting for you in your pad because you had work on Saturdays.

I am sorry that it seemed like I neglected how kind and caring you were. Perhaps, I was overjoyed with being your princess and got too complacent. I remember not needing to tell you to do anything. Because you always made sure I got what I wanted, what I needed.

It may have looked like I took you for granted but I loved you the best way I could. It may not be how you wanted me to love you but that does not mean I loved you any less.

I am sorry that I failed to take care of myself – I let myself down and did not care how I looked and it seemed like I did not give a damn that I gained weight. But I was upset about gaining weight, I did not know how I could go back to 2004 when we first met. Of course, I wanted to look my best for you. And since I couldn't bring it back, my defense mechanism was to act “masungit”. Because I did not want people looking down on me.

I have nothing bad to say about how you have taken care of me. Because you did a pretty good job in taking care of me. And I tried to give back. I could write a list of all the things I tried to do for you but I won’t. Because this is not about who did more or who did better. Not anymore.

I loved you! I just didn't know how to show it the right way.

I learned a lot from you. I will always be thankful to you for bringing out the best in me, for always believing in me. If there was someone really proud of what I have become, it was you.

You made me the happiest girl in the world on February 28, 2012. It was a like a dream come true. I remember telling you,

“We've gone through a lot of bumps and humps along the way, I know that there would be more. But as long as we have each other, things will always get better.”

I remember you telling me this,

“If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here
So you’d always hold, close and near
In your arms, where I’m meant to be
Filled with perfect love you've given me
A bond so strong, a hold so tight
To know you’re the one, my “Mrs. Right”
A blessing sent from up above
And I've found my one true love
Upon this new journey we've just began
Where you and I will find no less
Than eternal love and happiness.”

And I held on to that. I was so excited for new beginnings. Because of that, I wasn't afraid to face the world. Because I knew I wasn't alone, I knew I'd be facing it with you.

Never had I imagined that in less than 5 months, our happy ever after would be ending.

I know I had my own share of mistakes, my own share of shortcomings. And I do not blame you for throwing them back at me. I guess, I deserved it. I am sorry, I truly am.

But what I cannot accept is using them to justify what you did. Cheating is the worst thing you can do to someone you love. Nothings hurts more than getting betrayed by the one person who vowed to love you forever. I believed you when you said that you never meant to hurt me, that all you wanted was to love me. I could try to forget that it happened, forgive you and just move on. But what I can never understand is why you had to leave me.

How could you expect me to accept that you had to leave me because there were other people who needed you more?
How could you expect me to accept that you had to fix yourself? That you had to fix some things alone?
If what you said then were true, why chose to fix yourself with her?
Why not fix things with me?

I remember trying so hard to get you to change your mind, to save US. In desperation to save US, I haggled and sold myself short. I knew you were with her the entire day and I had to settle with your available time (if there was anything left) at night.

I remember telling you,
“Just come home. I don’t care if you’re still together.
Just come home. You can go on with your relationship.
Just don’t let me see the two of you talking.”

I also remember telling you,
“You can come back to me anytime.
I won’t be asking you questions.
Just come back to me.”

And you responded,
“I can’t promise you when I’d come back.
But I will hold on to what you said.
No questions asked, okay?”

I never lost hope that you’d wake up and realize that you've made a mistake. I know you saw my pain and I know it hurt you just the same. I did not want what happened to put an end to US.

You told me that if we are meant for each other, we will find each other again. But I refuse to believe that. Let’s not use DESTINY and FATE as excuses for the choices we make.

I prayed and prayed every single day. I asked God to give me another chance, a chance to make it right.

But with each passing day, I discovered how deep and difficult the situation is.

Imagine my pain when I found out that it’s not as simple as you sleeping with someone else.
Imagine my pain when I found out that she followed you here in Manila after your affair in Singapore.
(How could that happen when you were with me every day when she was here?)
Imagine my pain when I found your online request for CENOMAR
(Which you couldn't get because you are indeed married)
Imagine my pain when I found your one-way ticket to Bangkok.
Imagine my pain when I found your ticket from Bangkok to Chiang Mai.
Imagine my pain when I found out you told her that I was just your crazy ex-girlfriend.
Imagine my pain when she told me that I sent her a fake marriage contract.
Imagine my pain when I learned you got her pregnant.
(Saw her preggy picture)
Imagine my pain when I learned that you were already back with your family in the province.
(When I thought you were still in Thailand, with her)
Imagine my pain when I learned you were downstairs processing your final pay but you did not ask for me.
Imagine my pain when I did not hear anything from you when Papa died.
(That was when I needed you the most)
Imagine my pain when I found out she has given birth to your child.
(Saw the baby pictures)

And every day, since then, I never stopped questioning God,

“Why did YOU let this happen to US?”
“Am I a bad person to deserve something like this?”

I wanted to talk you but you were nowhere to be found. You were gone, gone without saying goodbye. The most painful goodbyes are the ones without closure. And you never gave me closure.

I wanted to lash out at you,
“How could you wake up one day and suddenly realize that you that you've stopped loving me?”
“How could you sleep soundly at night knowing the pain you have caused me?”
“What happened to together forever?”
“What happened to happy ever after?”

I kept waiting and waiting, waiting for something I probably knew would not happen. Hours turned to days. Days turned to weeks. Weeks turned to months. Months turned to a year.

They say time heals all wounds. But it felt like the wound just got deeper and deeper. Every single day was a struggle - should I continue breathing or not? I did not want to wake up, not until you’re back.

Some people say I wouldn't make it. Some say they look up to me for strength. Some say I survived it gracefully.

To be honest, I don’t really know where I’m at right now. Have I really survived it? It seems like I'm numb, emotionless. It looks like I no longer feel anything – may it be pain, hatred, or love. Nothing. None at all.

I somehow found my peace. I somehow found happiness within.

Maybe it helped that I learned to forgive myself for my mistakes. Maybe it helped that I learned to accept that while I had my own share of shortcomings, they should never be used to justify what you did. Maybe it helped that I learned to forgive you even without you saying you’re sorry. Maybe it helped that I realized that it is more important to see you happy than my desire to be happy with you again.

Because that is what love is.
It is not about getting even.
It is about acceptance.
It is about sacrifice.
It is about seeing you happy.
Even if it means it’s not with me.

Looking back at the past year, I know I fought my hardest.
I would have fought for you until the end.
But my heart is too battered to keep fighting.
I will never win your game.
How can I win when you are who I’m fighting with and not her?

I am starting to understand why all of this had to happen.
Maybe we grew apart. Maybe we lost that loving feeling.
Maybe you are meant to be with her. Maybe I’m meant for someone else.
Or maybe God has another purpose for me.
A little over 8 years. A relationship that has been tested and strengthened through time.
But I realized that with each passing year, we fought more than we loved each other.
Perhaps, what separated me from you is I held on while you chose to give up.
Because that is how I love.
I never give up.
I love deeply.
I give my all.

I learned a lot from you and from us.
Thank you for everything. Good and bad.
I may be still in love with you but I refuse to remain broken.
I know I will be lonely every now and then.
I know I will feel the hurt every now and then.
I have to heal. I have to be whole again.

I loved you... 

Goodbye...

Shared by Miss JSA

I got married to my 5-year boyfriend last Feb.28,2004. I was 3 months pregnant already that time though it was not an accident. We were really planning for it. Life with my husband was not easy. He was fond of going out with friends, drinking, gambling, partying, etc... Not to mention that he's a seaman. I had a rough pregnancy because I was always alone. Then came my due date, Aug 2004, my husband was not around. He was gone for 2 long weeks without calls nor text to where he was. He came home when I gave birth though as if nothing happened. Then came Nov 2004, he boarded the ship again. He will be away for 9 months once again.

When he left, I kept on receiving phone calls and text messages from a girl and she was claiming that she's the wife of my husband's bestfriend. I had a strange feeling. I googled her name and saw 3 accounts under her name. Myspace, friendster and gmail account. I immediately searched her in myspace and there I saw pictures of her and my husband. Name of husband was the name of my husband also. I didn't stop looking for evidences until I come across a folded paper on top of his tv inside his bachelor's room and there I saw a marriage certificate. Their marriage certificate. They also got married... Aug 4, 2004. Weeks before I gave birth.

I was so devastated that I called the girl and told her that I already knew everything. She went to our house, with her mom and told me everything. They have a daughter. She gave birth 3 months after I gave birth. She told me that she didn't know about me and that when she found out, she wanted to end everything and tell me all about it. She was true to her words. She filed a nullity of marriage and just asked for support from my husband. I was ready to leave my husband when I found out that I was pregnant again with our second child. I gave birth July 2005. Me and my husband got back together and forget everything that happened. We were okay for 5 long years...Or so I thought.....

They had a high school reunion, 2009. He was always with his classmates and he introduced me to this girl that has 3 kids from 3 different men. He told me that despite of that, she is very successful with her work. He was always talking to her over the phone, always with her in every events even on christmas and new year! Then the mother and sister of the girl went to our house. They confirmed to me that yes its true, she is a mistress!..... Of my husband! That they are always together and that my husband is planning of leaving me already. That fateful day happened, he left me and my kids.

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Now after 4years, they are still together.  I never filed for any case against him nor ask for any support until he went to our house and beat me. Because I don't want my kids to be with him.  He hurt me physically infront of my kids. I filed the RA9262, VAWC and now we are just waiting for the resolution.  I have been very considerate to him because he is the father of my children but enough is enough....he will never really learn his lessons....despite all the things that happened to me, in my marriage, I was never afraid of giving myself a chance to love again...I am in a relationship now and I can say that I am happy and contented with my life right now. He loves me and loves my children more. He is God-given  .... I just hope that my VAWC case will have a resolution already. I wanted to start my life once again....

Shared by Miss NC

This maybe one of the best stories that can be read by others. YES! (ang yabang ko lang) Why do I say so? Kasama lang naman sa kwento ng buhay ko ang organizer ng blog na ito. Kung hindi dahil sa kanya hindi ko makikilala ang love of my life ko ngayon. Kung hindi dahil sa kwento ng buhay nya, at kung hindi dahil sa facebook account nya na pinafollow ng marami.... siguro hindi ako ganito kasaya ngayon.....

I would like to share with everyone the emotions and revelations my heart has been through.    

I'm 24, a proud mother of a 3 year old baby boy. I got married 4 years ago to the man I love the most. I gave him everything. I loved him dearly and we discussed our love as though it were unique, something everyone wants but not everyone receives.

My husband works in Dubai since 2010, 3 months palang ang baby namin nun nag-abroad sya.  Gusto daw nya kaming mag-ina na mabigyan ng magandang buhay kaya pipiliin nya munang lumayo para sa amin. For the first 7 months na nasa Dubai sya, okay na okay pa kami. Walang problema, sweet pa rin kahit malayo sa isa't isa. May 2011, wala pa syang isang taon sa Dubai umuwi pa sya dito just for our son's first birthday. Unang uwi nya yun, nag-celebrate pa kami ng birthday ng anak namin. Walang kasing saya ang nararamdaman ko that time. Sobra ko sya namiss. Wala akong ibang inisip kundi ienjoy ang bakasyon nya na magkasama kami. 

Bumalik ulit sya ng Dubai ng June 2011. Since then pagkabalik nya sa Dubai. Nagsimula nang magbago ang lahat. Nagsimula na akong magduda. From pictures that was posted and tagged on his fb account. Hindi na kami nagvivideo chat, though everyday sya tumatawag pero di na ganun kasweet na gaya ng dati. Parang may mali palagi. Simula pagkabalik ng Dubai di na kami nagsskype chat, bihira na niya sagutin ang emails ko, di na rin nagtetext... Sabi nya dun sa pic na nakita ko sa fb "hindi ko namang hahayaan may itag sa akin kung may tinatago ako sayo." Lahat ng paliwanag nya, lahat ng palusot tinanggap ko pinalipas ko.

From June 2011 until November puro pagdududa na ako. Pero dahil naniniwala akong di nya ako magagawang lokohin, pinanghawakan ko ang mga pangako nya. Sabi ko napaparanoid lang ako, nag-iimagine lang na may babae sya. Basta ang nasa isip ko mahal na mahal nya ako, mahal na mahal nya anak namin, at hinding hindi nya magagawang lokohin kami. Everyday sya tumatawag at nag- iiloveyou, so wala sa isip ko na magkakaroon pa ng ibang babae..

But I was wrong... 

I discovered the truth on November 2011. I guess the truth had been haunting me despite a happy marriage...there was something wrong... Funny thing is, I thought I was unhappy with my job or something.  No idea that the root of my unhappiness, discontentment and insecurities were stemming from my seemingly perfect marriage. 

My husband has committed adultery. 

I found out that he had an affair with his co-worker, pinoy din. They had relationship in Dubai, secretly they were living together without my knowledge. We separated because of this woman. The time na nalaman ko ang lahat, 6 months pregnant na yung kabit nya. Di ko halos akalain na nung unang uwi nya ng Pinas that was May 2011 habang nagsasaya kami sa bday ng anak ko, may relasyon na pala silang dalawa. Wala akong ka alam-alam dahil napakatanga ko siguro sa mga oras na yan.

You know what hurt me most was that this other woman/mistress knew me. Ninang sya ng anak namin. Mag-officemate na sila dati sa Makati, pero sa Dubai nagkadevelopan.

Kaya kakilala ko din sya. Nagpadala pa kuno ng birthday gift para sa anak ko yun pala sya na ang sumisira ng pamilya namin. Sobra akong nashock sa mga nangyari.. 

How did this begin without me noticing? Was I blind? Was I that far from my husband’s life?

I think the most difficult thing any woman can go through is an affair, I trusted my husband with everything I am. The pain of what he had done was overwhelming. How could a man that looked me in the eyes and say he would never risk losing me but he did. How could he crush his vows to me so easily?

Dec 2011, nagkaharap kami. Umuwi sya ng Pilipinas para iuwi na yung kabit nya kasi 6 months pregnant na. Inamin nya ang lahat. Humingi ng sorry.  Nagkausap na parents namin. Ako firm na ako sa desisyon ko nun. Sabi ko papalipas muna ng panahon at galit. Hindi ganun kadaling tanggapin yung ginawa nya. After namin mag usap okay na sana pero pinakita sa akin harap harapan kung paano nya mas pinipili yung kabit kaysa sa akin.

After that nagkaron ako ng pagkakataon para maopen ung personal email sa office nila. Using ms outlook online sa mismong website ng company nila ako nag log in. 

At duon ay nakita ko na lahat ng evidence na pwade kong makita. Ang dami nilang emails sa isat-isa sobra! Na lalo lang akong nasaktan..

I knew I shouldn’t torture myself with the emails kasi alam ko naman na lahat eh, but I began to read through them. Her messages to him were mostly sexual, describing their encounters detail by detail. Hindi ko kinaya yung iba...they love each other based on my observation sa mga emails,,

I struggle with how many details I want to know. Once you know something kasi, you can’t un-know it. It was so painful that I  physically got sick. I couldn’t sleep. I kept going back to the emails.

Recovering and coping from this kind of situation is exhausting and tough. Isa lang ang gusto kong mangyari noon. Revenge. I secretly want payback at one point in my recovery journey. It's like I may feel justified in hurting him and getting him back for what he did. So I filed a case against him.. Agad agad ba.  Galit ako eh.. Nangibabaw na yung anger sa puso ko. I know it's a human nature to have that little voice in every woman's ear urging them to make the man who cheated them pay. But I am here to tell you guys to quiet your voice. Revenge is not the way to handle an affair. It's just a temporary fix, it will not make you feel better or to get the root of the problem. Ganyan nangyari sa akin. Habang may kaso sya hndi pa din naman ako masaya eh. 

So what I did, I opted to surrender everything to God. Sabi ko sya na bahala. Kailangan ko magmove on para samin ng anak ko.

Moving on is not that easy, it has taken a lot of self control, prayer and meditation to get to the point that it doesn't hurt as much anymore. Finding other ladies that have been through similar situations has given me great relief.. 

Masarap yung feeling na nakamove on na. Ngayon gusto ko naman ishare kung gaano ako kasaya. 

May 2013, I saw someone's post on Facebook who captured my attention. The story shared by Miss Jane Lacson.  

Her story sounds like a mirror of my life–my heart–my thoughts–my feelings. I have had what I thought was perfect marriage–one of a kind. 

So then I started following her. I became one of her thousands followers. Hindi ko din inexpect na kahit isa lang ako sa mga followers niya ay nagagawa niya pa rin magreply sa mga messages ko. Reading all her daily posts, until the day she posted this status on her wall. 

"Minsan parang gusto kong maging matchmaker. Magkano kaya service fee ko? Lol. I want my sad friends to be happy kasi." 

It all started because of that post...... Imagine? Hindi naman ako sad, pero sabi ko why not if itry ko magcomment dito, so isa ako sa mga nagcomment dun.  That day may nag add agad sa akin,  mga tatlong guys pero I ignored lang, 2 days later saka ako may inaccept na isa.. sya si Mr R.. We don't have mutual friends, alam ko na followers din sya ni Jane pero tinanong ko pa rin sya, then he said yes, from that moment everyday na kami nag uusap. Chat.. text.. call.. 

Parang ang tagal tagal na naming magkakilala. I accepted his friend request pala May 29, I met him in person June 29, 2 months na kami magkakilala ngayon July 29. It feels great and amazing! After break up akala ko matatagalan na naman bago ako maiinlove ulit.

After separation namin ni ex. Hindi ako nagkaron ng bf, nawalan ako ng interest sa mga lalaki though may mga nakadate naman before..okay pala yun hindi ka naghahanap. Sa akin dumating lang sya.

Pareho din kami ng karanasan, separated din sa wife nya. Yung wife naman nya ang nagloko. Almost same experience. Yun nga lang lalake siya.

Nagkasama kami 3 weeks dirediretso. Pinakilala na nya ako sa family nya, pinakilala ko na din sya sa family ko. Tanggap at love na love nya ang anak ko. Okay na okay kami. Nasa ibang bansa na ulit sya ngayon, umalis two weeks ago na. Pero di ako nalulungkot kasi every 4 weeks contract lang sya. So next month kasama ko na ulit ^_^ masayang- masaya kami. Walang doubt sa pagmamahalan. Feeling ko parang mas matagal ko pa syang kakilala kesa kay ex ko.

Isa na lang ang kulang sa amin, isang problemang kelangan nang masolusyunan sana sa madaling panahon maging malaya na kaming pareho.

Technically we're still married and we are both working on our annulment.

We all deserve to be happy... Happiness is a choice..and choose to be happy.. 

Thank you so much Jane. I owe this to you.... Thank you for being a big part of our love story...

PS. Pinapasabi ni Mr R.. Thank you daw sa iyo, sabi nya isingit ko daw sa kwento ko.

Shared by Miss Lea

This is the first time I will talk about this bravely in public. No holding back. So, I'll go straight to the point. ALAM KONG MERONG IBA. We didn't just break-up because according to him, "he's not into long term relationships". Men, that's BULLSH*T! One year is a long time. But honestly, I was foolish enough to believe that sh*t reason for a while. I've always believed in everything he said. Smiling like a lovesick puppy everytime he told me he loves me and I am the only one for him. My heart flutters whenever he asked me to marry him. I trusted him more than anyone in the world. He meant the world to me. I was like this little girl living in a fairytale, believing that this prince would never leave her and that he was her happily ever after. Turns out my fairytale ended fast and it was absolutely not a happy ending.

I was crying everyday for two weeks. My heart hurts badly, I would always feel like crying everytime I remember him and our dreams and plans for the future. I sometimes wish that I could just erase all the good memories, I thought moving on would be faster if I would just get mad and forget about the good times. But, it's not. I tried it but I can't. I would just always find myself forgiving him (HE NEVER SAID SORRY). I'm the kind who never hold grudges on anyone. It's not really that easy moving forward to life when everytime you do something, it reminds you of him. Even though things ended badly, I never regret all the moments I felt that choosing him and fighting for him was the best thing I ever did because he made me happy, he really did.

But it's time to face reality, he's moved on, it's painful hearing people say that they "saw him with someone" when it's only been three weeks.  The pain of choosing to believe him than my own family and friends just because I asked him and he said no, then realizing that I should have listened to the people who never left my side. I'm so done with crying I honestly just want to tell people to stop informing me whenever they see him or hear about him. Someone told me to embrace my pain to make me stronger and better, and I will. I would. I just want to move forward and be happy like I was... before all of this happened, (I'm on my way) I'll pick up the pieces little by little and I know my friends and family will always have my back and won't leave me.

Shared by Miss Cielo

Married for 10 years and during those years, madaming beses na nagkaroon ng third party on his part, pero paulit ulit kong pinatawad, until 3 years ago, I got an email from my husband (currently based in Dubai) na gusto na nya makipaghiwalay, tumutol ako for the sake of our children kahit napakasakit na. But then, pumayag ako after a month dahil hindi ko na kaya ang sakit, provided na he will support our 2 kids. Ginawa naman nya, but last year without me knowing he went back home, I assumed magkakaayos kami pero hindi pala he just wanted to see the kids lang pala, so I told him pwede na sya umalis, he said babalik na sya ng Dubai, then after a couple of days, hinatid ko pa sa airport, yun pala hindi sya babalik ng Dubai, tumira sya sa girl na kasama pala nya pauwi ng Pinas, napakasakit.

After a week, he went to see my mother, saying, "isinasauli ko na po ang inyong anak". Napakasakit kahit na three years na kaming hiwalay, hoping pa din ako mgkaayos kami for the two kids. Akala ko sa movie lang ito nangyyari yun pala hindi, napakasakit, halos matunaw ako. Araw-araw akong walang lakas, kahit sa work ayaw ko pumasok but God whispered to me and told me, get up, kaya mo yan! With my family and friends, I was able to fight. God gave me strength, I focused myself sa work and my children. Sabi ko kapag may dumating sa buhay ko na partner bonus na iyon, masaya na ako sa buhay ko with my girls.

Just recently, I accidentally met a guy, it was a long story, how we met. He is single and four years older than me, he loves me so much and the kids. I never knew this will happen. But I'm sure God permitted all these things to happen for a REASON.

Shared by Ms. Fe

I’m in my early 30's. I married at the age of 29 but sad to say after 2 years of marriage, hiwalay na . Parang simpleng hiwalayan ng bf/gf ang nangyari pero ang mga events before the break-up hindi simple. 

Our story started in 2006. We were in the same company but different division. Katulad ng mga office love stories, we started as friends then became lovers. I could say na yung relationship namin as bf/gf was almost perfect. Super sweet siya, full of surprises for me. He was so proud of me na everytime may bago siyang ka-opisina, kinukwento niya ang love story namin. His friends became my friends too and witness sila sa lalim ng pagmamahal niya sa akin. Kahit sa family and relatives niya open ang relationship namin. 

On our 3rd year anniversary, he proposed to me. It was a surprise. Sobrang saya ko. He somehow planned for it na kase may list na siya ng entourage on his side, idadagdag ko na lang yun sa akin. Mamimili na lang ako ng altar date ko. And on August 2010, I became a wife. First six months of married life was a bliss. I was very happy and contented that I was too inspired to be the best wife for him. I feel secured in our relationship that it didn’t bother me that I stopped going out with my friends and while he continued to do so. One day, naiwanan niyang open ang fb niya and I checked his inbox. (I don’t know his fb password) I was shocked to learn na meron palang pumupunta sa bahay na girl everytime na nasa work ako. Kilala ko yung babae kaya kinompronta ko silang dalawa. Umamin na twice na dumalaw yung babae pero sabi ng asawa ko anong masama dun eh magkaibigan naman sila. I was very hurt. Ano ba ang iisipin ko na ginagawa nila pag wala ako? That day was our first big fight since we became lovers. But, he begged for my forgiveness and asked for a second chance. Pinatawad ko siya at namuhay kami na parang walang nangyari. 

June 2012, naging madalas ang overtime sa work at may overnight pa ang asawa ko. Hindi ko sana papansinin until may tumawag sa akin na nagsabing may gf daw asawa ko sa office nila. And one time, sabay umuwi ang asawa ko and yung girl ng past midnight at kinabukasan sabay naman silang pumasok. Alam ko na nung gabing yun sabi niya sa akin may overnight sila sa office. Nanghina ako nung narinig ko yun. Hindi ko naconfirm ang identity nung nagsumbong sa akin pero alam ko na baka one of our common friends na concerned sa aming dalawa. Kinausap ko asawa ko at umamin naman siya na natulog siya sa motel pero mag-isa lang siya. Hinatid daw nya yung girl kase late na pero sa sobrang antok hindi na umuwi sa bahay kaya nag check-in na lang pero sinabi niyang wala silang relasyon nung babae. Hindi na lang ako nagsalita at iniyak ko na lang ang sama ng loob ko. 

Akala ko magiging maayos din ang lahat, pero midJune nakikipaghiwalay na sa akin ang asawa ko. Namimiss na daw niya ang buhay binata. Inamin na rin niya sa akin na mahal niya yung officemate niya na hinahatid niya. Ang sakit-sakit nun sa akin, pero hindi ako pumayag. By the end of June, sinabi niya ulit sa akin na gusto na niyang makipaghiwalay talaga. I asked him to tell his parents na makipag-usap sa parents ko kase hindi lang ganun kadali ang makikipaghiwalay lalo na’t kasal kami. Nasabi ng parents ko nung namanhikan sila na kung ayaw na niya sa akin isauli na lang niya ako sa mga magulang ko ng maayos. 

First week of July, birthday niya, ang hiningi niyang birthday wish ay “kalayaan.” Masakit sa akin pero pinagbigyan ko siya. It was the third time that he asked for it, ibig sabihin decided na talaga siya. Pero tinanong ko siya kung ako ang may problema, siya daw. Confused siya at tsaka na lang niya na realize na hindi pala siya handa sa married life. Mabuti na daw yung wala pa silang anak. Tinanong ko kung sila na ba nung girl, sabi niya hindi daw kailangan daw ba may babae sya para hiwalayan ko siya. Maawa daw ako sa sarili ko. That time, nilabas ko lahat ng galit ko. Nagawa ko siyang murahin. For the first time in my life, nakapagmura ako ng tao na harap-harapan pa. It hurt me so much kasi yun asawa ko pa ang unang taong minura ko. I even told him, he is so unfair na after almost 6 years of relationship ngayon lang niya na realize yun, na wala naman pumilit sa kanya para pakasalan ako pero wala lang sa kanya. Nagalit pa nga sa akin kasi minura ko daw siya at wag daw ako mag-alala kasi i-aannull nya naman daw ako. Kung nagmamadali daw ako mauna na akong mag-file at gumastos at babayaran niya ako unti-unti. Kaya gawin ko na daw lahat ng gusto kong gawin kasi hiwalay na daw kami. 

That day, I left our home and went back to my parents’ house. I admit, marami akong pinagdaanan para masurpass itong problem na ito. Nag-undergo ako ng counseling sa priest at psychologist. It helped me a lot too nung inopen up ko yung problem ko sa mga kaibigan ko. At first hesitant ako magshare kasi nahihiya ako pero I realized na hindi ko naman maitatago ito kasi hahapin nila sa akin yung asawa ko. I stopped communicating with my ex already. Minsan nababalitaan ko lang sa mga friends namin na namayat daw siya ng husto samantalang naging blooming daw ako. hehe. Nakita rin siya ng ninong namin sa kasal kasama yung girl na sweet na sweet sila like us before. But it doesn’t matter to me now. 

After a year nakapag-move on na ako. I already accepted what happened to my marriage. I even thank God that He let me know the real attitude of my husband at the early stage of our marriage. I gained a lot of true friends at sila yung dumamay sa akin nung time na sobrang depressed ako. "I may never had a romantic love this time but I know and I’m sure I have a lot of unconditional love from the people that surround me. True friends and family is the best answer". I hope that in God’s time I will find a man who will accept me for who I am at kaya ako panindigan until the end. What I’ve learned from my experience is that “marriage is not an assurance to make your relationship last forever.” Akala ko kasi dati pag kasal na ok na.

Shared by Miss MP

I met my ex husband through my relatives. He was 1 year my junior. I find him to be very youthful and outgoing. When we were introduced I didn't expect anything because he lives abroad and I know he will always have one there. He asked for my number.  I didn't expect him to call me. More than two years went by after he went back to their place abroad and occasionally he would call me. Just friendly conversations, though he can be flirty at times. I am the total opposite of him. I am very conservative. We met again when he went home to attend their grandfather's funeral. There he asked me if I could be his girlfriend. I never had a boyfriend before and with his efforts in calling me in that 2 years I began to have a special feeling for him so I said yes.

We dated for just few days then he went back to their place abroad. Despite the distance we tried to get in touch with each other most of the time through calls because we don't have internet in our place before. Then came the foolish decision we've ever made, to get married. I took the risk that time because my belief was in relationships it doesn't matter how long you have known each other, for there are others who have been lovers for years and only to break up later, while others only met a few times and they end up well. Also, I was told by my relatives that he is a good guy. He loves his mom so much and he grew up without a father. So I thought we have something in common. I lost my father when I was barely 4. He died from illness. 16 years later my mom died too. So I told myself its about time for me to have my family or so I thought. To make the long story short we decided to get married.

I remained the faithful fiancee and "wife" daw. Prior to the wedding, we were already experiencing a great challenge in our individual differences however we decided to push through. I thought that was just normal. That we are just going through a phase and we can fix this by talking openly with each other. But he wouldn't take time to talk to me. He prefers going out with a bunch of people. He even thought of going to strip clubs. 2 years after that fateful wedding, he went back to the Philippines to bring me to their place. We had our second honeymoon kuno. A honeymoon without intimacy. Little did I know that he was having an affair to the same woman whom he was fooling around while we were still engaged. And worst of all,  he admitted to me that he already had a change of heart towards me few days before the wedding but decided to push through because everything was already set up and he wants to save our faces. With what he said, I began to think that maybe the reason why he brought me with him to his place was to save his face as well.

Courtesy of Favim

Since that time, he would spend most of his nights with his other woman while I am left in their house with his mom. He would talk to this woman over the phone in my presence. The same woman would drop him off at the apartment where we and his mom lives. He also told me that he'll just wait till Christmas is over then he will move to his other woman's place. I suffered depression to the point of thinking suicide. Then finally, I decided to leave. They called me UNGRATEFUL. Now, I have heard that they already have a child. Its more than a year now since we separated I have already started to let go of him for the sake of the baby. I don't want the child to grow up without a father. Now we are considering divorce but he is giving me a hard time even if it was his idea in the first place. Maybe getting married and becoming a wife and mother is not my calling in life.